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Hmmm, wondering what day it is?

Check my phone. Tuesday, April 28th. How is rent already due again in just three days? I have so many projects to tackle and I don’t want to do any of them. So I just sit in the sunshine and drink the wild air. Again.

Entering my sixth week of quarantine, and I’m finding it difficult to be motivated even with a busy three-year-old running around getting into a new project every five minutes. Some days it’s difficult keeping up with her. We garden. We paint coconuts and create pictures on the sidewalk with chalk. We make a splash pad on our front porch and watch the fish swim by. I’ve detailed my car inside and out, shampooed the upholstery of my furniture. Sanitized every surface of my house and laundered every piece of fabric. Re-labeled my entire spice cabinet, re-organized my pantry, and cleaned out refrigerator and freezer. I wait for the sun to lower so I can water the vegetables. Breakfast, snacks, lunch, snacks, dinner, dishes. How early is too early to turn on the TV and just numb out tonight?

We can’t go anywhere. It’s been 13 days since I left the house for groceries. We both got sick and are on the mend by immersing myself in dōTERRA essential oils. That was scary getting through it, taking care of her and me by myself, knowing that no one had my back. It was all up to me.

I miss having a partner. Someone to talk to and enjoy life with, someone who has my back and tag-team life’s hurdles together.

The beaches and parks are closed, the islands are locked down so no one can come to visit. The few friends I’ve made here are coupled up and keep to themselves. It’s times like these that I miss having a partner. Someone to talk to and enjoy life with, someone who has my back and tag-team life’s hurdles together. Someone to laugh and cry with. Someone to just sit and cuddle with while watching the sunset or a movie together. I feel isolated, lonely, and feel terribly alone in this big responsibility of single/only-parenthood all day every day. It’s beyond overwhelming at moments.

Self-portrait shot for Two Neighbors non-profit fashion company.

Anyone else feeling the same way right now?

Portrait Photographer, Writer, and Consultant LaRae Lobdell is an environmental portrait photographer, host, and instructor with over 20 years of experience photographing, directing, producing exhibits, and speaking in the photography industry. She focuses on providing artists, actors, models, and companies with lifestyle and conceptual imagery for promotional use and branding. Her approach is very contemporary, her work has a timeless elegance, and she represents the grace, distinction, and style that is possible in photography. Her curriculum vitae includes 21 photography exhibits of her own work, the curation of 15 exhibits for other artists’ and museums, the production of 13 private and community events, and two year’s experience as director of one of Seattle’s largest art walks. Her images have been published in The Huffington Post, Broadway World, Yale University Magazine, Martha Stewart Weddings Magazine, and even aired on the Colbert Report. LaRae’s position as a lead host for online educational giants such as CreativeLive and Polaroid University gave her the unique opportunity as one of an elite group of professionals to connect a live global audience to top renowned professionals in photography, video, design, business, audio, music, software design, productivity, and lifestyle. She brought her network to BLACKRAPID as their Culture Liaison, facilitating close working relationships between influencers and organizations for promotional sales and marketing. Grateful to be a stay-at-home mom while balancing a rewarding career in the photography industry, this proud single mom enjoys a nomadic traveling lifestyle between Seattle and the Florida Keys with her daughter, Emerson.

Comments:

  • April 29, 2020

    I know. They say we are all in this together but its a very lonely thing to go through. Especially with social distancing. Nice photos.

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  • Lisa

    April 30, 2020

    Lovely post, LaRae. Just remember that you are building amazing memories for your daughter right now. It doesn’t seem like it now, but as they say, the days are long but the years are short. In a few years you’ll look back and wonder how it all went by so fast, yet when you’re in the midst of it, every day feels like a year. So strange how time with kids works. Mine are at the leaving the nest stage and I’m holding tightly to this unplanned gift of having them stuck at home with me for just a little while longer. Hang in there,

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