Journal Entry: June 19, 2016
Death to Make Room for Life
Part of me is dying every moment. Everything I am, everything I was, and everything I thought I would be, all of that is going away.
And then all of a sudden I find room and fresh new space for something – or someone – that’s about to be, and although I thoughtfully understand what that’s about, I truly have no idea what’s really in store for me.
I feel like anything I plan is taken away. I feel like anything I think I should be doing is wrong. Anything I try to do for work disappears so quickly before I can even grasp my hands on it.
I don’t know what God has in store for me anymore. I don’t know what he wants me to be doing. He keeps taking it all the way for the purpose of reshaping me. I don’t know what to say as all that I am, is still being formed. So I’m just learning in and trusting. Hard.