Journal Entry: June 19, 2016

Death to Make Room for Life

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Part of me is dying every moment. Everything I am, everything I was, and everything I thought I would be, all of that is going away.

And then all of a sudden I find room and fresh new space for something – or someone – that’s about to be, and although I thoughtfully understand what that’s about, I truly have no idea what’s really in store for me.

I feel like anything I plan is taken away. I feel like anything I think I should be doing is wrong. Anything I try to do for work disappears so quickly before I can even grasp my hands on it.

I don’t know what God has in store for me anymore. I don’t know what he wants me to be doing. He keeps taking it all the way for the purpose of reshaping me. I don’t know what to say as all that I am, is still being formed. So I’m just learning in and trusting. Hard.

LaRae Lobdell maternity selfie week 24, Miami FL, June29th, 2016

LaRae Lobdell maternity selfie week 24, Miami FL, June29th, 2016